Experience teaches wisdom…at least that’s what most people say. The tangled web of emotions associated with complicated relationships can often result in experience being thrown through the window and foolish decisions being made. At least that’s what my experience has taught me. My experience has also taught me that it may be best for me to be alone and embrace the life of a single woman. Although there is no textbook prescription for a perfect relationship, I have been doing a lot of reading to try to understand how my personality affects my interactions and who would really b the right type of person for me. I started viewing sites such as http://www.astrologycompanion.com/virgo-compatibility/ and taking compatibility quizzes until I saw this image today:
Anger boiled within me as I read the chart. Who really has the audacity to tell me that I am compatible with no one? Why should I allow people’s opinions to dictate who I choose to spend the rest of my life with?
This led to me doing some introspection. Each experience I have had has taught me aspects of my personality that I need to change and things I need to do to be happier and enjoy life. I describe these revelations as my “shining lights”. Hopefully these shining lights can be your guide as you navigate the waters of singledom.
Shining Light 1: No One Controls Your Happiness but You
Earlier this year on of my friendships turned sour. This greatly affected me because of how close I was to the person. The pervading thoughts in my mind sucked the joy out of me. Talking about it with my friends didn’t help. In fact, it made how I felt worse because I felt it was something I should have battled on my own. Last week I decided to forgive the person completely. Only then did I feel a weight lift off of my shoulders. Only then was I able to communicate with him without feeling resentment. Only then did I realize that when I do enter a relationship, I should avoid harboring resentment in my mind and make the difficult choice to forgive. No one should have power of my thoughts in that way ever again.
Shining Light 2: Create Your Own Experiences
As an introvert, I understand the value of solitude. However, I have never been able to appreciate the value of solitude when going out. In my mind it makes no sense to go out without company. With my very limited budget I have learnt the value of going out alone. There are times when I leave work and find somewhere to just sit and chill with my thoughts. I’m even thinking about taking a road trip sometime next year when I can round up some cash. There is nothing wrong with enjoying your own company.
Shining Light 3: Loneliness Doesn’t Validate Settling
Sometime last month I met an interesting character. Thankfully, he showed is true colours early enough for me to realize that he wasn’t worth my time. However, there have been times when my loneliness has gotten so bad that I have thought about contacting him (it’s a good thing I deleted his number). Loneliness doesn’t make settling for the wrong person worth it. It’s better to be alone than to be in an unfulfilling relationship. I have even begun to look at the beautiful relationships that my friends have and used their experiences as examples of what I want for myself.
I am embracing and enjoying my single life. If a relationship is to happen then I will welcome it with the right person. The three shining lights I have outlined will be my guiding principles stepping into the future.